What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger

Assalamualaikum, hi, howdy, hello? hehehe.. I'm such a looser when it comes to blogging. Walaupun tahu takdalah sapa pon kan nak membacanya, but it feels good non the less to write some times. SOoooooo... I dah resign from my job, tinggal seminggu je kerja sana. Sedih *sniff* tapi takpa, when one door closes a bezillion more opens! kan? kan? kan? hehehe.. Sudah namanya rezeki, selepas resign call mummy kat Langkawi to tell her & yes she agreed that I should resign but, ada but pulak kan? dia nak I sambung belejar, waaahhh... terasa tua sangat nak mingle ngan bebudak lepasan SPM mummy!!! huhuhu... but yeah since I'm a wife now it is better to be a student dari banyak habiskan masa di tempat kerja, at least as a student bila takda class I'm at home & I can do housechores takdalah nampak macam kapal karam kan rumah?  I have to be positive, SUPER DUPER POSITIVE (+).

Seterusnya right now I do not know how to apply to Uni's anymore, yelah semua sekarang UPU kan? & I don't even know the tarikh & sekian-sekian-sekian stuff to apply. So can anyone let me know when & how? sebab Uni awam sekarang sangat-sangat malas nak buka application directly to the university. Mostly semua cakap apply UPU je,ok i get that but can't you tell me when is the next intake at least? Kalau swasta bukan main bagitau terus the whole year punya intake ( because they want your money as well, sebab tu excited bukan main tu). So yeah, dalam persimpangan dilema. Sometimes rasa looser sangat diri, tapi kena selalu ingatkan diri ni setiap perjalanan yang susah n berliku-liku n berdrama sastra macam wayang ni hanya diberi dekat diri ni sebab diri ni tersangatlah kuat, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger baby. Mesti ada sebab kenapa kena pergi buat ni & then fail & then tak sesuai & sebagainya kan? Apa-apa pon kena teruskan berdoa biar Allah tetapkan ada di jalan dia, kalau jalan2 lain tu menyesatkan kembalikanlah kat dia, insyaallah. (I say this all the time to my nieces).

OK cukuplah luahan perasaan diri ni. Thank you kepada yang membaca!!!

Till the next time,

Ave Whitlock.

Reboot

Assalamualaikum, hi hello.. So semalam pergi Neng Geulis Hijab punya kedai. Ya Allah rambang mata u'olls... taktau nak pilih warna apa, mmg best2 belaka design. So belilah beberapa helai saja-saja try out and ternyata mmg best pon! I've been wanting to berhijrah(dengan erti kata sebenarnya berubah) dengan memakai hijab yang menurut syariat dan alhamdulillah Neng Geulis Hijab does just that. Tudung besar/lebar boleh ttup dada dengan baik memang terasa bertuah sangat pilih nak pergi kedai diorang. Okay sekarang ni apa relation Hijab tu dengan reboot ni? setakat nak berhijrah pakai tudung labuh je tak payah buat blog post kot? betul tak? jawapannya yes! anda sangat betul sebab tu apa yang nak diceritakan ni just a piece of the whole story.

   So sekarang ni I'm working as a Retail Assistant dekat Uniqlo, baru je a month and alhamdulillah memang tersangatlah best kerja situ working environment dia memang sangat positive, but after a month dah mula rasa macam this might not be for me. Kenapa? first of all sebagai seorang isteri I've wasted most of my time at my work place which isn't even my own business, so takda time sangat untuk suami sekarang ni dah nearly sebulan tak masak untuk suami & i feel really-really bad that I'm neglecting my marriage at an early stage. Second of all as a lot of people may have known I've dropped out of college at my final year because of some private reasons so I was planning on resuming my studies at Open University & my working time right now does not really allow me time to study AT ALL! Third is I'm beginning to thin that this job would be unsuitable for me when I'm pregnant(hopefully soon). The next point is it's hard to just get a break n go for prayers as sometimes you dont have anyone to cover for you especially when you are the cashier or you're assigned to the fitting room. Lastly when you work there you have to wear their items which goes back to the beginning of this blog, I wanted to Hijrah my self to wear more Muslimah clothing and lets face it not all Uniqlo items are muslimah friendly especially the jeans where mostly are skinny, slightly straight & legging jeans.

     So right now I'm in a huge dilemma patut ke berhenti? Is it selfish of me? Am I doing the right thing? I'm going to do istikharah  tonight just to keep me from lingering about it. I dah bagitau suami pasal hal ni & dia agak setuju dengan pendapat ni. Yelah, lelaki mana yang suka isteri dia kerja sampai lewat malam kan? & sekarang dah jarang jumpa & He would love his wife to not leave her prayer & be a good muslimah.

Insyaallah Allah permudahkan perjalananku.

Pray for the best,

Ave Whitlock.